Yesterday, I was talking with a friend of mine about her concerns. I reflected how I felt of my past and what I have been through. Meanwhile, the reflection also helps me to review my past suffering. I was ever a timid person, and do not know how to be strong and independent enough. Yet, I do not even notice when I have changed, which makes me to review how I made such a change. Therefore, the first changing point I would recall is that I start to develop one hobby and maintain it consistently; such as, daily exercise (running, stretching, or walking), creativity performance (drawing, writing and designing) or setting small challenges; etc. I developed one hobby of 30 mins stretching exercise as my daily simple target whilst I was 14 years old; then I maintain it over years. Now I set up another challenge though I was not keen to, which is to run 30 mins or 2 miles walking daily. So far this challenge has been 4 months. Though I still view this target as a challenge, I continue to work out on a regular basis. My intention is to convert this challenge to be a daily habbit.
Also, it is important to be self-disciplined. The first thing I requested myself is saying ‘NO’ to myself in making of excuses, such as: "I am not bothered because I am not in the moods." or "I can't make I because I am not capable of maintenance” or “I am not going to make it." Refusing my own excuses is the first responsibility and reaction I would seriously adapt. Since there is no excuse, there is always something to work on. (Well, driving others to achieve the goal is easier than driving ourselves to reach the target. If we are the model to make someone learn after us, we need to be strong.) Although I do not know how others would view the relations of perseverance and achievement, I am aware that I would find myself gaining sense of achievement as long as I make an effort on maintaining a hobby consistently and continuously. The feeling of "disability" or "failure" could be overcome gradually. In other words, it is more like having the power in controlling my will to perform a task and face the challenge, such as daily exercise or other kind of hobby, etc.
