g4chavi的部落格

約克有太多美麗的景色，其中一個代表的Shambles街區別有特色，不過那邊的商品只能遠觀而不能褻玩焉；下次我打算去Little Shambles的Tea room吃個英國午餐，看準了一家Pub，價格也很平實，等這個健身月過後，我打算去好好吃上一餐。

短短的20分鐘的小憩，已經閃過三個夢了，閉上眼睛看著夢裡的畫面情節速度似乎是如同電視快轉八倍的速度。我記不得前兩個夢，只記的最後一個夢，只因為夢裡的主角跟我有對話互動。地點是在一個舞台劇場，只有幾座頭頂燈光對著我與她，還有一灰白燈光投影於台下，劇場似乎有點沒落，雖無年久失修的場景，但亦無光鮮亮麗的氣派，我想約有五十年左右的歷史劇場了。
台下約百個紅與藍兩主色的絲絨布面的海綿座椅，顏色由階梯走到劃分，一邊為藍，一邊為紅，台下似乎並無任何賓客，但卻聽得到交頭接耳，此起彼落的聲響。舞台是由木頭搭建，整體舞台並不太大，約六坪左右的長寬面積，背景搭建是一紅色絲絨的厚實窗簾，窗簾底下接著鵝黃色的波浪流蘇，流蘇底夾帶著蜘蛛塵絲，似乎許久未有打掃的痕跡。一片片灰土的長條木板接連之間有些縫細，踏著木板還可以聽到窸窣聲響；我手邊有一個復古造型的方形麥克風，我站在觀眾面對劇場的左手邊，左後放是一個綠色絲絨的三人小沙發，旁邊一圓木矮茶几，茶几上一盞燈籠檯燈，燈罩是六方形象牙白，附上厚厚的塵埃，檯燈裡的黃燈泡是微微發亮著，就整體而言，我彷彿回到了六Ｏ年代。

Several clips to share from Britains Got Talent, which reunites Ant & Dec and Simon Cowell for the first time since Pop Idol. I am really impressed by these performances. The winner will perform in front of Her Majesty The Queen at this year's Royal Variety Performance. (Frankly speaking, I think this kind of the 'Royal family' thing really shows British 'Class' system. I don't really like this kind of 'Class' thing but it's just British culture.) Also, I am really entertained by the comments from Simon Cowell.
Luke & Charlotte－Ballroom dancing


Connie Talbot－Somewhere Over The Rainbow.

Damon Scott－Michael Jackson Singing Monkey

George－Street Dace (Break dance)

He is quite boyish and appears genuinely happy. I like this boy though he can't make to the semi-final competition. What a shame. He seems from Manchester. Maybe I can see him dancing in the city centre. Cool!
Jack Reeve－Jack Tap Dancer

Bessie Curzons－Eliza Dolittle

MD Productions

Kit Cat Dolls（a transsexual performance）

Somewhere Over The Rainbow

Monkey show

Bar Wizzards

手機業務員Paul Potts以歌劇登場影片（於Britain Got Talent比賽），果然是一鳴驚人啊！
Paul Potts－Time To Say Goodbye

一個先生和醫生預約門診，他要老婆陪他前去。
在醫生仔細檢查過他先生後，醫生請先生先迴避，然後對太太說：『你先生的病非常嚴重，他需要些特別的治療 不然的話他可能會死。』

這兩天看Sex and the city超有心得，我想這齣劇主題就是男女大不同，女人單純的想要一個完整完全的愛，而男人總難搞得懂女人的心態，想是一道深鎖難以解碼。當男人聽不懂女人的暗示，總希望女人誠實地表達心態；可是當女人誠實時，男人很難接受女人攤開的一面；換言之，就是說對話，作對事，總是對錯時。
劇中四個三十歲以上的女人代表四種心聲，也是女人內心想法的基本四大面：
難道只想單純的被愛是奢侈的嗎？
談情說愛一定要選對人才行嗎？
乞求一場永恆的愛情是錯的嗎？
擁有愛情與麵包是不切實際的嗎？
不過看完六季後的心態是，女人若真的都那樣，大概都會嫁不出去了，因為都經過大風大浪，回歸平淡後，又是一種失落的開始，怎樣都不會滿足。其實看了之後，每看一個心理都會批評一下，怎麼女人可以誇張到那麼情緒化外加神經質，不過劇情的張力實在很令人一齣接一齣的看。看女人生活上的情緒百態也是一種反思，只是看完後，開始懷疑自己是不是女人了！難不成自己是「蕾絲邊」，大部分都是處於少一根筋的小恐龍－太男人婆的個性，還是自己過的是過度壓抑自己情緒，無法徹底宣洩情緒的生活呢。
劇中我大概喜歡的就是Mr. Big，除了他是帥哥外（看戲又不是找男人，還是養眼比較重要），覺得他的不定性，還有很難下承諾的個性跟我的個性倒是挺相像的；另一個癡情漢（Aiden）若不是有禿頭傾向，我就會陷入兩難的局面，不過，這個大概就是浪漫與實際面的選擇性了。
還有看完這齣戲讓我有種對生活的另一面體驗，我挺享受一個人居住的生活，自由自在，想吃想睡沒人管，超自由的生活；我想我是一個很適合獨居，啥都自己來的獨立都會女性吧；劇中女主角那種遇到結婚就嚇到驚慌失措的恐婚心態，還有面對婚姻之後對生活的觀感（家庭，甚至孩子問題，身扛重任），我似乎頗能認頭那種恐慌感。
想想大概日後自己也是處於那種兩人一起就好，結婚還是就不要提了；近期比自己年輕的朋友常劈頭就說：「你這麼老了怎還沒結婚，以後當高齡產婦！」自己倒是一派輕鬆（心裡頭想的是：關你屁事），自認為不是當賢妻良母的那塊料（家事都避之不及了，還要當老媽子肯定不合格），到像是在事業上可以當個拼命三郎。
另外，劇中很多露點鏡頭，但怎都是女人露點，怎沒有男人露點呢？連露個屁股的幕都很少，真不夠養眼，偶爾也來個裸男製造畫面辛辣嘛，我肯定是五指大開遮眼的瞪著看！
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初一日生
初 一出生之人，雖然福氣和官祿的運勢無法兩者兼美，不過財運倒是相當不錯，經控受到貴人引薦，而使事業能有順利發展的機會。初一出生的女性大多具有興旺夫家 的命格，婚後多能有效提升家庭的經濟狀況。整體大運方面：年少時期的運勢比較平常，中年以後運勢逐漸好轉，而能取得財富與名聲，但若是過於志得意滿，汲汲 於浮名富貴的追求，將會使好運由盛轉衰，應多加留心注意； 晚年之時生活豐足無憂，而能享有福運綿長的退休時光。

楊宗緯要退出啦，真可惜，我都很期待聽他唱歌；還有看他投入的神情，專注的男人就是帥啦！不過還是好好欣賞他的演出囉！演唱的兩歌曲分別是：「雨天」，「握不住的他」。這次陶子更是搞笑，很會帶動現場氣氛，當主持人真是得要反應機靈哪！

This week I have been working on my discussion chapter AGAIN after 3 months later. It was a nightmare in writing this chapter, which took me so much brain power and made me wonder whether I am a moron or not. I decided to rewrite my discussion chapter after my literature review month since I found there are many interesting points to discuss. I am also aware that I am capable of using counterpoint to make points of my research value and the findings to implementation. After writing my first section to reflect my first research objective, I honestly have to say that I enjoyed the process although I often end up nodding my head. This process is still taking much of my brain power and exhausts me somehow. At least, when I review the current section I just finished, I notice it turned out to be more interesting and organized. I definitely learned something from writing my literature review.
Although many of my colleagues told me that the chapter of literature review is the most easy process since we all have been suffering from data collection (I called it a “begging” process－asking all kinds of friends for help; especially I collected 3 kinds of data) and data analysis process of both qualitative and quantitative methodologies (I called it a “torturing” process－transcribing, finding patterns, learning analysis programs and statistics). Eventually I am at the stage of “writing”, or I should specify, “the last stage of writing”. This process is considering the most uninspiring process and I have to whip up myself to feel motivated. However, before entering this “writing stage”, I have been looking forward to starting this stage because it implies that my collected data is valid and my data analysis is significant. When doing my data analysis, I was in a great fear that whether the data would turn out to be rubbish, wasting my time. Meanwhile, I have to do a lot of reading during data analysis to see whether the results are reasonable. (I should feel ashamed of myself since I was bit lazy in doing my literature review.) After having the results from both of my qualitative and quantitative data analysis, I was quite concerned whether the results were not compatible and what I should do if the results were opposite. Although qualitative and quantitative data analysis do not guarantee a common result due to different research methodologies, it would be a disaster if the results are contradictory, implying either I have to find out the problem; e.g. findings another pattern, changing another analysis formula or the worst－collecting data again. I panicked immediately whenever I was thinking about re-collecting data which implies that it would take another year minimum.
Now I am writing and modifying at the same time. It is certainly not a joyful process, but it is more like a peaceful process that I learned to think and interpret objectively and logically. Yet, it is quite difficult to remain calm all the time and keep my mind on writing over 2 hours. I often become sleepy after 2 hours writing and spend 2-3 hours watching soaps to cheer up. It is bit like a struggling cycle being on and off. The pressure I have is more about facing the deadline. I set up my target to finish each chapter in one month. Writing my literature review chapter was especially stressful when the data findings suggested me lacking of much knowledge in related literature (I read much of computer-media communication, teamwork and methodology, but I read little about conflict management). Reading is no longer a difficult thing but fining related literature is difficult since there is little literature review in conflict management strategies.
Anyway, I tried to write some interesting points in conflict types and conflict behaviour in virtual teamwork and so far, I finished the chapter of literature review and hope my supervisor will not ask me to add more about it (Geeee, I will see him next week). The current plan is to finish discussion chapter by the end of this month and start the introduction chapter and modifying the data findings’ chapters. It will not be much fun but I can not wait to finish it and have a month holiday for myself. I do not have any holiday over 2 years and am feeling smothered. My last summer time suffered from bipolar disorder and so badly thought of doing crazy things; e.g. jumping on the roof, hitting my smoking flat mate, packing up my stuff going back Taiwan. Now I have a contrasting feeling and feel more like a positive person again (talking about this, I have to thank Karen to help me out of daily sleeping torture). I am looking forward to finishing it and then, HOLIDAY, HOLIDAY and HOLIDAY, which is all I need for my efforts. I think I am so desperate for holidays and unwind myself.

今天很意外的繼續收到Facebook的邀請函，說有個朋友加入我到Network，之前Leeds英國朋友加入，還想到說是不是一般網路轉信，一直遲遲沒加入，接著挪威的乾哥也把我加到Facebook，基於好奇心看乾哥兒子的照片，還是乖乖的登錄加入；接著意外的收到Nottingham碩士班的英國好友Alex也加入我，我想說這個鬼靈精怪反傳統的英國佬肯定又在網路上放他搞笑照片；近乎一年沒聯絡的Alex，果然還是一點也沒變，大孩子的個性，裸著上身在海邊放風箏，又發了簡訊叫我去check up a sexy man，真的是不改個性，一樣不正經的cheecky chap。
跟Alex在Notts一直處於微妙關係，是我在英國第一年裡，是真的當上朋友的英國人，而不是一般small talk的英國朋友（其實真的要交上當地的朋友當好友，還是有點難，尤其當時剛到英國，英文半吊子，英國腔也聽不懂，怎樣也難融入當地）；跟Alex上下課前後老是去喝上一杯（咖啡），週末可以抱著電話聊八卦，道是非（真的是兩個窮極無聊到極點，個性卑劣地批判班上同學），這樣說上幾個小時（談情說愛也沒這麼認真過）；後來因為八卦到workshop革命情感，一路交換作業看對方的寫法與分析，然後又有共同八卦的對象（Farnoosh「註一」跟情緒諮商課程的講師「註二」），簡直是在學校裡密不可分的好友。
不然這傢伙就是喝了幾分醉就會打電話或發簡訊來一番真情告白（一年內被告白ｎ次，也大概知道這鬼傢伙喝醉酒了），要不是瞭解英國人喝酒前是紳士樣，喝酒後是瘋子，大概都會被他的告白搞得不知所措，不懂回應了（記得我當時還都只有回答：Thanks, go back to sleep, you are drunk again!）；後期只要他一喝醉告白時，我都會錄音存檔，把電子檔週一回傳給他，讓他上班收信時，來一個瘋言瘋語大震撼；沒想到這傢伙把告白當習性，還自己作音樂檔的旁白！真是吃飽了撐著的無賴傢伙。之後搬來曼城後，Alex往往發簡訊時，敘述著他繼續過著他Friday night clubbing的生活，裝著可憐樣dramatically說著少了我一起過週五夜生活的無聊（太假了，其實也不過一起去pub一次而已），還不忘說我是'P'ig 'H'ead 'D'octor（Ph.D）。
看著Alex更新的資料，果然還是朝著他Global landlord的目標邁進（Alex在英國與西班牙幾處置產），照片裡的他，帶著漁夫帽，在西班牙的海邊放風箏，依然一如往昔的帥勁，英姿風發，神氣的不得了得臭屁樣子（果然是西班牙混血熱情帥哥），真是一個意外的驚喜，看到他網路日記裡繼續保持著瘋狂基因的一面。想到在Notts的生活，又是一陣陣美好的回憶，好友們週末狂歡日，看看如今的週末，幾乎都在電腦與書本裡渡過，跟書蟲，網蟲沒什麼兩樣，又是一番哀悼自己的小悲嘆。不過很高興可以繼續看到好友的近況，也重拾與老友歡談搞笑的回憶，也沒想到其實還是有英國朋友可以這麼長久的保持聯絡啊，真的是一番新舊滋味別上心頭啊！
註一：Farnoosh其實是個好人，只是愛管閒事，又愛發表意見的個性有時候很難吃的消，外加上我們一群人課程結束後去喝一杯後，可能玩的太瘋了，太晚回家，Farnoosh還竟然隔月自以為是地問我是不是「有了」，冠上我個Party Queen的名稱！真不知道他的想像力外加自以為是地編撰「上Pub然後一夜情」的故事，我還為此差點翻臉！
註二：名氣頗大的心理治療師，還是看他上電視批判Michael Jackson的整容與心理問題，只是驕傲與上課遲到的個性有點讓人吃不消。（不過，我也個性很差，把遲到機車的老師鎖在門外一下子。。。）

楊宗緯又來啦～以為他是真的唱到快哭，唱得自己ㄍ一ㄥ住，想說他因為戰友要被淘汰唱到心裡的痛楚，結果大概是我多慮了，不過真的看他唱的表情很辛酸就是。陶子也說得好：「催淚歌神！」超搞笑的稱號。

昨天遇到我那RM2的室友，她們正在開水餃餐會，招來的對象無亦是該房的非法男友，天天來我這層樓洗衣服的路人甲，基本上只有RM2人在噪音亦在，好比是人如噪音製造機，走到哪吵到哪；開餐會說話吵鬧的程度更是非同小可，鏗鏗鏘鏘好似是在廚房裡發展了騎馬打仗，只把盾牌換燉鍋，大刀換菜刀，在房間的我還以為廚房發生了溫泉關戰役（參考三百壯士電影版的廝殺情節）。聽的他們吵的不可開交下，還是勉強可以繼續寫作；這時候香煙味甚濃的氣味竄入我房裡，怒氣指數頓時可說是從五十爆昇到百分百破表，我決定放下手邊的報告，直接去廚房做涼沙拉，把這些噪音帶來的煩擾降低。
去了廚房後，一看場景，廚房如戰場，稈麵粉末通天漫飛，地上又是絞肉末，又是辣油滴落；我前天花了一小段時間整理清掃廚房，眼看就是白費力氣了，心理自然是一股難掩的燥氣表露於臉上（我想我應該白話簡單地形容我的表情－－「帶塞」，真是淑女風範都敗壞了）。